Of Love & Aphrodite

2008-06-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

MOVED.

http://raeeechel.livejournal.com/

2008-06-12T00:32:00.003+08:00

i'm here without you.

i don't know what's come over me,
or why this realisation has to come at this time,
but i know that i'd better try as hard as hell to get over it
before i get hurt again.

2008-06-11T00:56:00.002+08:00

they can never have yesterday

already i'm missing... /: it feels like the longest 3 days ever. i really have no idea (wait ok actually i do but it's so hard to put it into actual words) why i'm feeling this way. mm but i have survived 1. and it's just a little more to go. or so i tell myself.

went grocery shopping at the supermarket yesterday. decided to get a trolley, and i was just pushing it round and round up and down the aisles for so long not knowing what to buy or why i was there. it was a very lonely-widow feeling. seriously. same thing, returned home this morning to a series of frustrating pangs of melancholy. gosh im becoming some vulnerable schizz.

i'm sad.
): ): ):
)': )': )':

i feel like moving to my lj for good.

2008-06-05T00:06:00.002+08:00

it's so much more than i remember

she watched him with the sweetest sadness in her eyes.

2008-06-04T00:11:00.002+08:00

the hardest part

hello i am taking a break from chem.

dance intensive.
lol ok it's.. wed now. 3 more days to THE day.

i love peppermint green tea.
and famous amos soft and chewy no nut chocolate chip wahahaha.

gawd i woke up this (tues) morning at 6 feeling damn cold, muscle aches, ok so i was like uh nvm i shall continue sleeping. woke up a little while later shivering, couldnt take it anymore so took my blanket went out to living room to sleep w/o aircon or fan. feeling like wthhh cos i was wrapped up in the damn thick blanket outside and i was still damn cold. drifted off a bit, woke up again feeling nauseous. feverish, took temperature, fever, took panadol, continued to wrap myself like a sushi and went back to sleep. woke up and ta-dah i was better. fantastic case of the 1-hour sick bug.

feel like eating pasta again! and then i can drink italian soda.
soon. like tmr ^^

2008-05-31T02:12:00.000+08:00

thank you...

i love you

2008-05-30T01:28:00.002+08:00

i still..

just before you realise its absence.
what am i freaking standing still for.. tell him!...

2008-05-29T01:17:00.003+08:00

take me away

home is a warzone.
i really dont get it. is it fun to scream and slam and shout and bang things and stomp around? does it bring satisfaction of some kind? glee? you have a problem, talk about it. this place screams radioactive.
save me.

and im sick of school. im tired of struggling through. i mean like, i enjoy the company, the friends, of course streetdance is the ultimate love and dance is my life, and that's just it. dancing is my life. it's not some status and it's not just some hobby. i do it because i love it and i know that if i work hard, i'm gonna go far. but that's not the ultimate goal of rafflesians is it? to pursue your passions? the aim of this place is to produce academics. scholars. high-flyers. that's not what i wanna do in life. alot of these people just dont get it. and damn it that i put myself in this situation. too bad rachel, you gotta study, why? cos raffles people just dont not do well. they dont fail their exams. they just dont. if you do, you'll be the weird ass in the system. find me a fool who'll tell you that results are not important in today's society. if you dont do well, you'll let your parents down. wanna be a weird ass? not really. not unless there's a daayaammnnn good reason to. wanna let your parents down? NO.

c'mon it's just a few more months. put in some real effort and work hard. you can ace this exam.

2008-05-29T00:00:00.004+08:00

rproj 08

as audience, this year.

my girls are so gorgeous (:

steph looking amazing

sherrie !

check out whose seat it is, yo

it's blur ):

lynette! :D

jianing told me he was perfect for me

cute right

2008-05-27T23:55:00.002+08:00

front it like "oh well"
each time you let me down

today's been quiet.
i'm not quite sure that i like quiet.

been packing my room, and throwing stuff out. i think it's therapeutic, really. to throw stuff out. and like tear paper up. ok la i dont really tear it up i just rip it out from the stapled stack and recycle the de-stapled stack of paper later on. one thing that is definitely not fun, though, is filing paper. !##$..#$!&%@ i never knew we had so many loose handouts/notes/crap. back to my point, i really do like to throw stuff out. it's like detoxing.

ok i am feeling so weird right now.
come home soon ):

2008-05-27T00:24:00.002+08:00

will you hear me,
if i ask you to stay?

i am falling into the bad habit of sleeping very late.
i... am lost.
i don't know what to do or say,
and i'm afraid that you'll leave,
or that i will.

2008-05-26T22:52:00.003+08:00

TERENCE'S INSTRUCTOR SESSION

the pretty cadbury wheel (:

nyehehehe streets cafe

ya i know we're retarded ok.

loves (:

2008-05-26T00:41:00.003+08:00

This is what dreams are made of

mm STREET CHALET ((:
i think it was a majorrr success! i shall not go into the details of what happened in sequence, that one you can go look for other streeters' blogs to read. important things:

1. THANK YOU EVERYONE = SO MANY MANY MANY PEOPLE FOR COMING!!!
2. those who didnt, you were DEARLY MISSED ♥
3. THANK YOU J1S FOR THE AWESOME SURPRISE, FAREWELL, GIFTS & CAKE! EVERYTHING WAS UBER, SUPERBLY WONDERFUL AND SWEET LOVE YOU ALL MUCH (:
4. j2s, hope you all liked the video, from the bottom of our hearts. i'm sorry the music got screwed up during the photos part! i really timed it to end and fade off at aileen's last photo yall supposed to CRY when you watch it you know !!! ):
5. spending time with you people is the bomb! staying up throughout the night, the feeling of one FAMILY under the same roof eg making breakfast for everyone... it was so heartwarming and amazingly fulfilling.

i don't want our term in street to end, but it already has..
thank you all j2s for putting your hearts and souls into street. every single one of you is much appreciated.
dont drift away okay!!! )': we must stay close and do many many things tgt like study!
and i wanna dance with you all again. we'll find a way. we must find a way. promise promise promise. even if it's as alumni!

_____________________________

so anyway, home after chalet, took the bus with cheryl beng lowell eric. was seriously sleeping like really really sleeping. kept leaning onto cheryl who says my hair is so nice and soft and smells good (: and lowell's hair is like a BUSH. yay! luckily i sat beside cheryl so i cld lean on her to sleep man.

reached home, take off slippers put down bag wash feet, SLEEP. that was at 3pm. the next time i woke up? it was 9am. confused? ya i was DAMN CONFUSED. when i went to sleep it was bright. when i woke up it was also bright. WTH i slept 17hours skipping dinner and i didnt even know it. so i ate lunch on saturday, and then lunch on sunday. AM I PRO OR WHAT :D ahahah i must put disclaimer: it was cos i slept a total of 3 hours 20 mins in 2 nights - thurs and fri. so must make up for lost sleep. wah it was a damn nice sleep (((: so happy.

watched rproj, shall paste all the pictures since terence's dance session tmr or sth yea. i think tmr i shall give myself a relatively R&R day (:

goodnight streeters, send you all through telepathy. much love (:

2008-05-20T23:39:00.002+08:00

pandora's box

i shall now infuse the following sentence with my amazing and powerful vocabulary as taken from my wordbank: you shitheads (ok not exactly bombastic language) are a DEBAUCHED, DECADENT, ODIOUS set of fools, and even those are EUPHEMISMS for what i would like to say about you.

i hope gp essay tomorrow is about the existence of assholes in this world, and i think i shall surely get an A with my fantastic and extensive knowledge.

NINCOMPOOPS. ('poops' for short says eric)

2008-05-19T23:55:00.002+08:00

[4]

is the number of days til' STREET CHALET WHOOHOOO~~~~~~~~~~~~

okay luckily i didn't go out to study with the girls as planned. initially it was cos' whole family wanted to go botanic gardens to play. but LUCKILY i checked my email and it was only then that i realised: CALAMITY CATASTROPHE i have 2 essays due tomorrow which i totally forgot about. so in the end yea i skipped botanic gardens outing as well to do my stupid essays. damnit.

i have had migraine 2 days successively. since it always comes for a few days in a row i hope with all my might i dont get one tomorrow.

______________________________________

someone hire me as a dancer ): okay fine not the skanky type but i just wanna continue dancing!!!!! anyone need backup dancers look for me okay ):

2008-05-17T00:02:00.002+08:00

all i ever need

i'm soooo tired
and i dont really want to think about today's dance xplosion heats alrdy /: = my last dance with street?
bahhhhh humbug.

2008-05-15T00:48:00.003+08:00

closer

there's so much that i want to tell you,
something that i want you to know
but i cant, just because.

2008-05-09T23:03:00.007+08:00

18th

THANK YOU:

(esp to)

08s07a
streeters
family

angel ashwinii athena anna aileen aloysius benjy beng cherise charlene clara chiwei cheryl.t cihui christine chelsea dina dennis eric evona eugene eleanor genlow harresh haily huabin haslina hanlin isabella jeffrey jodie jianhao junwei joanne jianing jiayue jiaying justin joel kokthong! ken lowell lynette mf meily melwong noo oli philbert rowena ron rachelang syaz shiya siti sarah sarahlyana sherrie sam syafiq shem seleena samuel ALL OTHER STREET JUNIORS timothy vic weishan wynne wormy weiyuan yingfen zishan zhenyi

i hope i didnt leave anyone out [:

specially to:

mum - for replacing my old torn nike bag with the real deal !
aunt esther + the boys - for the charm
class - for card and shirt
lynette - for the wonderful home-baked cake ((:
cherylt - for the chipmunk so cute like me :D
charlene, meily, clara - love the shades babes
aileen - you know i love bling
josh - you also :D
eric - whose note made me want to cry, so touching
jodie - YAY COLOURFUL PENCIL
yingfen - haha yes im glad to have befriended you too (:
wormy & zishan - :DDDD chocolates
odac batch #14 + angel - for lunch

THANK YOUUUUUU ALL
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2008-05-07T22:57:00.003+08:00

to be loved

by my streeters ((((((((:

THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU EVERYBODY FOR THE WONDERFUL SURPRISE.
(now that i think back about it right, no wonder ken was so weird today. call for break somemore. and ya man his acting is quite bad. recall: cheryl's birthday plan X)
thank you for the WONDERFUL VIDEO where you were all so spastic and i think i was supposed to cry but instead laughed like mad :D
LOVE THE BLING, YO.

AND THANKYOU JOSH (who sneakily sneaked his present into my bag) it's DAMN NICE ~~~

LOVE YOU ALL LOTS!

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2008-05-04T23:49:00.001+08:00

multiplicity

these slips,
they sit plastered on the ivory surface of the desk
they say something, but they dont mean anything.
how often do you wish you had the power to read minds?

this month, i promise that i will "create" "extra" time
for myself, for others, for ...

2008-05-04T00:04:00.002+08:00

lonely

i am experiencing that feeling where i need to do my work, like seriously. BUT, i dont feel like doing it, like seriously.

as always, dance happens to be the more immediate priority, and choreo demands as much attention as i can give to it now.

i wish jc life lasted 3 years.
or perhaps not. depends on which part of jc i look at [:

2008-04-30T23:26:00.002+08:00

where are you?

i'm always in this kind of shit because:
i think too much
i care too much.
one day, it is going to be my downfall.

1st sesh with instructor X. choreo was good (no seriously, being very objective here). exceeding expectations, lol.
thankyou j1s for the praises ((: i will work harder train harder dance harder to continue improving!
and, EVERYONE MUST WATCH OUR STREETDANCE PARODY OF "POTTER PALS MYSTERIOUS TICKING NOISE" starring clara as clarafongclarafongclaraaarararfongclarafonggfong....^^ eh but must retake ok no meily not funny (:

hurrhurr cant wait to get our shoes from ken :D

2008-04-29T20:44:00.002+08:00

check it out yo, 3 generations of streeters (((:

2008-04-28T17:41:00.005+08:00

picture spam, because i feel like it (:

RAMA: everyone is dead except clara who is smiling :

W*T#%!3*#%! BETTER PAY UP, YOU WUGUIWANGBADAN IF NOT YOU GO TO JAIL AND DIE

give it to me KEN POSE

Bounce + Church FTW

love the girls (:

(almost) all the j2s ((:

2008-04-27T21:09:00.002+08:00

sing me to sleep

still very sick.
i'm so tired i keep going back to sleep = i haven't gotten any work done at all.
i owe 2 freaking difficult essays which i have no idea how i'm going to finish.
i'm so drowsy and lightheaded. my nose and ears are blocked and i feel like i'm living in a bubble.
i hate the taste of cough syrup i have no idea how on earth people can be addicted to it.
i feel like i'm in a trance, and all i want to do now is sleep. again.
but i will persevereeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, and i will do my much-hated comparison essay now.

2008-04-26T15:49:00.006+08:00

RJC STREETDANCE

is ♥

well done all dancers last night:

aileen, cheryl, chiwei, josh, dennis, syaz, meily, clara, victoria, liuchang, athena, charlene & myself

♥ to eric, benjy, beng, jeff & sel who came to support us

♥ to the juniors who came as well, and cheered super super loudly!

thank you lynette for my specially chosen pink flower heh

both items were awesome: rama & bounce+church

not forgetting pixel animation (:

streeters, you people have really been a source of inspiration to me. many think that one has to have done great things or made widely-acclaimed contributions to be deemed "inspirational", but no. what inspired me is the very fact that your passion for streetdance, and not just dancing, stems from sincerity and love for street as a family. this is what spurred me on to keep giving my best efforts for street, to give my time, brain cells, muscles, knees...

through all our trials and tests, catfights, shouting, debates, disagreements, there have been valuable lessons to be learnt - firstly that these things are ephemeral, and can always be solved, because we are willing to. street is a family, a way of life in school, not just a cca. and this is what sets us apart from everybody else. and this is what we must be proud to hold on to. i am a perfectionist by nature, and there have been times when, in the midst of handling so many things, i have been harsh, naggy and snappy at you guys. so this is the time to express a collective apology for any unnecessary hurt, indignance or anger that i have caused. forgive me. i am truly sorry, and i always regret after scolding and i always wish i could take it back. sometimes being harsh worked, and sometimes it didn't, but i hope that all of you understand that innately, all i really want is the best for street, and for everything to be executed to the best degree of perfection that we can achieve. i set very high expectations for myself when it comes to dancing, and i get very irked at myself when i dont get things right. so nothing personal, if you offered me corrective advice and i was frowning - it's at myself, not you. (: similarly, i set the same high expectations for streeters, and i'm so glad to say now that i am so proud of all of you. you all are the epitome of what dancing is all about.

so, last night may have been our last performance as j2s, but that doesn't mean, in any way, that we have ended here. as seniors, inspire your j1s in the same way that you have inspired your peers. teach them and encourage them. you are the best mentors that they can possibly have. we might be facing yet another rough bump now, but we will work our magic again to make things work out for us. street is strong, independent, and bonded, and nobody is gonna bring us down anytime.

this sounds like my farewell speech, but actually, it is yet to come :D i shall continue in similar cheesy fashion though, to say - thank you for giving so much to street. i am sincerely and deeply appreciative of your efforts. each of you has given something of yourself, and when mashed together, has formed something truly awesome. i love all of you from the roots of my hair to the very tips of my toes.

with every beat of my ripped-out heart,

- rachel

2008-04-25T00:19:00.000+08:00

i am feeling so sick right now.
UGH

2008-04-23T21:35:00.002+08:00

it's [2] days to Humanz Concert perf !

rama costume, check
church costume, DEHHHHH.
makeup, DEHHHHHHHHHHHH.

argh. everybody go source for your own glitter makeup.

i am crazy tired.
on the agenda:
1. study (yeah right) for econs test
2. gp essay assignment
3. lit essay assignment
4. math assignment 13
5. math tutorial 13B
6. math tutorial S1
7. humanz perf CIP records (i will gladly do and finish this first)

homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :D homework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :Dhomework is fun! :D

reduced to psycho-ing myself. homework is fun! :D

2008-04-22T22:17:00.003+08:00

fantazia LOVE (:

2008-04-19T23:07:00.002+08:00

think i need a bottle with a genie in it

by doze iz blocgked. [:
(sniffle sniffle)

i think, that i am damn damn damn anal about lyrical hiphop. not to say that i'm like good at it or anything, (far from it, actually /:) but i dare say that when it comes to the style, i feel the moves. though what goes on in my mind and imagination and soul may not manifest itself in my execution so well, my picture of lyrical hiphop is a very beautiful and perfect one. hm sorry, starting the j1s off with 'one wish' was a mistake. it is hell important to have basics first, and if the foundation is weak, the dancing will not be good. and they are not ready, definitely. in a few months, perhaps. on a different note, today's routine was rather well executed, sharpness and all. i see potential in certain people for certain styles. from donglun's routine as well.

ah, reminder to self:
1. j2s' comments on donglun's routine (gimme that)
2. j2s' comments on sherrie's routine (cant-remember-the-name-of-the-song-it's-some-one-word-thing)
3. j2s to perfect j1s personally

dance in the morning, lunch with the girls, out costume-hunting, dinner with aileen vic meily @ the soup spoon where i barely ate half of my dinner packed the rest, national library to uh, 'study' and then to aunt esther's house, mum picked me up to come home.

i'm damn happy that our church routine is getting better and better! athena cant stop laughing at my big smile in the mirror. it's called 自high, yo. you must psyche yourself to feel that WOW i loooove this routine so much and i would loooooooove to do it a 1000000 times more! and i will smile thiiiiiiiisssssssssssssssss big for the audience on stage that day so that the people in the baaaaaaack row will be able to see me BEAM. :D hah.

will put up fantazia photos tmr.

2008-04-14T23:13:00.002+08:00

i

am feeling damn sick now.
am damn jealous. of who or what, you will never never know. it's so un-guessable.
am having a very "whyyyyyyyyyy", and "nooooooooooo" feeling. -_______- jiapangsai! (-josh)
want to have the power of invisibility

2008-04-13T23:13:00.002+08:00

melancholic moods

sometimes i dont feel like waiting,
but i dont want to be hasty \ and i dont want to stop

2008-04-13T22:32:00.002+08:00

dorian grey

am very tired right now.

had a semi-glamorous fall today, was walking really fast and i happened to step on some puddle or something so my right foot slipped forward and i fell onto my left knee with my right knee up a la marriage proposal stance. what's so glam about falling? i was carrying my bag on one shoulder, shoebag and the girls' food in the other, and when i fell my upper body didnt shift position so it looked like i was doing some dance move or sth, and i was still holding my bag and the food and everything intact. all the geeks playing their trading card game promptly turned to stare at me, and me being glam, simply checked if i dropped anything, gave them my best whatcha-looking-at look, at walked off at the same pace i started at. the bad part of it all is, it was my knee that i fell onto, so now it's hurting, and i have this mega-bruise which is going to become uber-mega tomorrow.

tech run at the performing arts centre, then dinner with the girls on watermelon steps where meily and i were damn high, and everyone just couldnt stop laughing.

i have "I'm a Cyborg but That's OK" in my comp now :D shall watch it when i have time. j1 exco interviews tomorrow evening, it will be a looooong day ahead [: hm i wish someone would pick me up after all my long tiring days ):

2008-04-11T23:52:00.002+08:00

if i aint got you

today is such a bad day.
triple whammy

2008-04-09T22:05:00.003+08:00

i need somebody & always..

i was motivated to do my chem remedial worksheet, but that was a long time ago when i was in the shower and feeling awake. now that my hair is dry and i am damn sleepy i dont feel like doing it anymore :D

wasnt feeling very well so cabbed home from the station. there was like some dragon queue so while waiting i hopped up to sit on the metal railing/bench/whatever thingamajic. and i was super irritated at this ah-soh who was next in line after me cos after each cab came the queue would shift a bit, but obviously i didnt want to shift every single time cos it meant i had to get down and then move and then use effort to sit on the stupid thing again, and this stupid woman would keep edging closer and closer and closer towards me as if the closer she got to the front of the line the faster the taxi would come. annoying. so my conclusion was, they should build a travelator-bench thingy which moves you forward when someone leaves to get into a cab. then you can just sit there and relax. woots~

ok so i have an anal, weird annoyance for close proximity to strangers esp. on public transport where i am usually stuck standing wherever i am and there are people pushing around me everywhere hello i know i'm short but i'm definitely not invisible. and if you happen to have eyes to be able to see me and take into account that i need space, those same pairs of eyes should, presumably, be able to observe that i am carrying a motherbig bag of stuff and thus the eyes send signals to the brain to bloody avoid my bag! ~~omg la.~~ ALAS! ZOUNDS!

today the moon was damn damn damn damn gorgeous. mm i love the thinnest crescent moon in the sky, and today was a thin crescent moon day, and to top it off, the crescent was a hazy shade of red! damn nice :D

(omg lowell is doing chem now i should be whacking myself for paling in comparison to him - such a diligent, hardworking, aspiring chemist XD) OKAY i'll do it during my long break tomorrow. PROMISE!

YAYYYY there's no prac tmr i have a breaaaaaak !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i want to go pasar malam ^^

2008-04-08T23:19:00.002+08:00

can't breathe easy

congratulations to the 23. you are now beloved members of streetdance (:
congratulations junhao who is a proud member of the 28th students' council. jiayou! <3

yesterday evening was aileen's first visit to O School :D we went hiphop lvl2, Daniel's class. damnnnnnnnnnnn fun ^^ and we both did GOOD! okay fine so our real motive was to go there to see if anyone was interested in being our instructor so we wldnt be stuck with GAY-EXTRAORDINAIRE. damn surprised when he asked us to stay behind with a couple others to re-video the routine. if it's good it's going up on youtube okay search for it :D

and it was a super HUGE compliment when he said that i have potential (: -beaaaaams! ok actually the way he said it was a little kooky like -points at me / "potential." LOL. okay who cares that is totally my new motivation to step up my dancing skills to mad dancing skillZ! XD

kay so. 2 potential instructors introduced to the Ls, hopefully one of those will be picked over the guy-who-loves-his-own-dick and-declares-it-on-his-cap /: O SCHOOL FTW PICK O SCHOOL.

hopefully after concert, i'll be much less busier, and not be stuck at prac every day until late. it's time i made time to do unplanned, random things, or go out, or go home rest [:
like now. is time to rest (: i love sleeping heh heh heh.

2008-04-02T23:54:00.002+08:00

i never realised it could make me cry

什么痛，
又酸，又苦，却又甜？

2008-04-02T22:16:00.002+08:00

all the things you said

i suddenly miss a few people very very much.
): sigh

waiting for my hair to dry (so what's new) and i'm going to go soak my poor mistreated feet soon. achingggg from dance prac. collectively, from yesterday + today. + tomorrow will be the ultimate, i think. haha. this choreo is damn, super, totally, 100% haaardcoreeeee.

thanks dear lynette for surprising me with the chocolates in my locker after my super sian day (:
ah thanks lowell for burning the movies for me yay :D

eh and i seriously would have gone to donate blood with teo today if not for my lack of a parental consent form. haahahaha. really okay even though i'm scared of the pain (or there lackof as asserted by a few people). and i dont know what my blood type is. ohwell. next time.

am tired.
nothing unusual.
i want to know, why i'm tearing too.

2008-03-30T14:33:00.002+08:00

missing some pieces

in the end?

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.
-Elizabeth Barrett Browning

2008-03-29T23:50:00.002+08:00

if you ever find a moment

/:
why?
):

--------------------------------------

sigh i realise, at the rate i'm going, i only manage to make it through 3 days of the week. by thursday i am so zonked out during school. and it doesnt help that monday and tuesday are the suckiest days of the week with back-to-back blocks, 4 in a row each half of the day.

i . must . sleep . more !!! @@@!@$#@$@#

2008-03-25T23:40:00.002+08:00

hear ye, hear ye

RJC STREETDANCE IS NOW AN OFFICIAL CCA

starting with 2nd auditions which begins tomorrow.

2008-03-24T21:37:00.004+08:00

zoo perf

the doom is looming as we prepare to receive our chem paper /: and econs paper. shucks.

went for dental today. and dental sucks now because it's a 5-10min visit that takes 40min to travel from school.

hm i am mildly pissed that i have lost the flexibility of my centre split. im stuck at like what, 100 deg? terrible terrible terrible. okay things to work on: centre split, consistent left&right splits, turns. for now. tried to cut music but i dont know what song i'm supposed to join the transition segments to. so.. that didnt work out too well either. freakshow choreo is um, ~~increasing~~ ~~growing~~ lengthening thanks to choreo session today.

oops forgot to print my interview questions shall go open the document to serve as a reminder that i need to print it later. later since my hair is so wet cant go to sleep yet. and since i cant sleep yet, i shall continue to listen for good transition segments to cut out. meep -.-

2008-03-23T23:50:00.001+08:00

:D

come come, joke for you that i chanced upon.

A man visits his aunt in the nursing home. It turns out that she is taking a
nap, so he just sits down in a chair in her room, flips through a few magazines,
and munches on some peanuts sitting in a bowl on the table.

Eventually, the aunt wakes up, and her nephew realizes he’s absentmindedly finished the entire bowl. “I’m so sorry, auntie, I’ve eaten all of your peanuts!”
“That’s okay, dearie,” the aunt replied. “After I’ve sucked the chocolate off, I don’t care for them anyway."

tres gross :D
goodnight

2008-03-23T23:21:00.002+08:00

moments.

oli's house in the morning. went playground to hide mini snickers for her to have ~~easter-egg~~ snickers hunt lol. then played cards havent played for so long and im sure la we bid for 5 of a suit to play 11-3 to win bridge lol. it's impossible for the bidder to win.

then rushed off for ballet-hiphop workshop with the streeters. was okay. new and quirky. 1st 2nd 3rd 4th 5th position as if i can remember lol. and the guy reminded me of jon /: i.e they are flingy lockers with strange angles and the same way of expressing themselves in their style. i think i'd better stick to lyrical hiphop :p which reminds me - i'd better free up one thursday evening to go lyrical hiphop @ oschool with ryan..

shopping after that for _____. then home for dinner, and dinner was the only meal i ate throughout the day #$%@&! and the first time i ate something besides the pear was at like 3+ after dance. and i can have an interesting breakfast tomorrow.

must remember to bring my retainers cos i have dental in the afternoon.
and time to pack my schoolbag. feels like i havent done that in forever.
T2Wk2. time sure passes fast /:

2008-03-23T00:48:00.003+08:00

dreaming out loud

am feeling mildly flu-ish. maybe it's just the bad weather.
out with lynette on friday what a fun day (: walking around everywhere, to school for a while in the afternoon attempted to choreo but all i did was piece what i already choreoed together. then to tcc beside plaza sing for dance comp meeting. walked around with aileen and cheryl, then i went off to raffles city, then home to cook my own dinner, and have been staring at the computer screen ever since. it's 1am and i really should have started my download earlier but ah heck 15min more to wait isnt a lot.

sigh. sundays.
when i am free i shall cut some music

2008-03-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

ouch.

2008-03-19T23:42:00.002+08:00

promise me you'll leave the light on

last paper of the week. and i'm kindof giving up alrdy slacked so much today. have the morning to continue reading notes and picking up quotes. shucks must remember to bring my CLEAN exam text tomorrow if not i'll have no book. havent read stuff for modern paper, but then again it's modern literature, anything goes [:

good luck, bio & physics and all english/chinese/malay lit people.

2008-03-16T23:52:00.002+08:00

summer love.

& dont wanna be just that.

"爱情
只是一种自己心理上的状态
跟家人，朋友，外界毫无关系
甚至和你心爱的对象无关..."

2008-03-16T00:48:00.002+08:00

or as unchanging as the sun

yucks my brain is so saturated with so many things how am i ever supposed to remember all the econs shit for first paper. i dislike studying and i hate the education system. what is up with the big-time emphasis on examinations and results and certs. (mr chan: "no choice, this is singapore")

i have one more day to chiong.
isnt econs supposed to be my stronger subject :
MACROECONOMICS $#$^%*@~?&#@!

hate mosquitos forever!

2008-03-15T09:05:00.000+08:00

from ancient grudge break to new mutiny
a pair of star-crossed lovers take their life

"their life", not "their lives" ?

2008-03-15T08:57:00.003+08:00

the diary of...

shucks.
i'm sorry x 1821738912362136284642406, eric !
):
:
><
[:
x

i owe you, big time!

2008-03-13T23:13:00.002+08:00

heart spilled on the floor

& i want to be the one to pick you up, heal you, and help make it alright again.
the weather's been really really cold. and the sky keeps crying. bundled up in 2 hoodies today in the classroom, which we happily got in by climbing in the window by walking around to the outside ledge :D uh hope we'll be successful in climbing in again hope they dont lock the windows. been watching j1 streetnight groups practising. not bad not bad. j2s shall look forward to interesting stuff on streetnight.
ok time to get some v impt sleep. shucks it's freezing im gonna wrap myself like sushi and sleep [:

mm and i have a new important mission, which must be completed soon.

2008-03-12T23:30:00.002+08:00

lost&found

when i feel like giving up
i climb inside your heart and i find
you're my safest place to hide

oh is it almost thursday already /:

2008-03-12T22:01:00.002+08:00

the streets.

yay yesterday's street outing to catch STEP UP 2 was successful. 28 tickets to settle the darned line of tickets was almost as tall as i am,which trung was sooo quick to point out thanks alotttt >:(

hotstuffff FINALLY i get the chance to move into ghetto hiphop for real after considering for so long :D previous attempts kept dying down due to several different reasons, styles for eg. so anw meily agreed that we should totally do it for upcoming concert+comp (after our being inspired by movie yesterday) whoooo~ this new choreo + lyrical's gna be SUPERFLY!

& "she's just a streetdancer" XD

2008-03-10T11:31:00.000+08:00

morning.

today feels like a sunday.

2008-03-06T23:34:00.003+08:00

because tonight will be the night that i fall for you
over again

bleh i am now drinking some 'nourishing' soup that is super bitter. okay quickly gulp, then wont be so bad /:

lit lesson today, then lunch with jodie and angel, then back to school, went for prac, then studying then dinner at cafe cartel with the street girls (cheryl.t clara meily & birthday girl vic)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIC !

waiting for my hair to dry which is taking forever, and my msn is being problematic again so i shall comment on a very unfortunate event which resulted in my now very-red-and-small eye. okay la just that a lot of shampoo got into my eye when i was washing my hair so dumb /:

sigh dance again the whole day tmr, in school then costume-hunting then to the studio. and i think i shall come back earlier after that if there's no dinner outing [: must have some relaxing-time.

someone please suggest a nice and seamless way to cut and mix '4 minutes' and 'if that's ok with you' one after the other >< aaah lyrical choreo, need to start soon.

and i think, i should start bothering a little less. and focus more.
yup.. (:

2008-03-04T21:25:00.002+08:00

autumn

am so sleepy ._________________________.
last day of the week tomorrow, only to be followed by hordes of extra lessons and whatnot. i seriously have a lot of catching up to do, and i cant believe i have been working on the same lit essay assignment for 3 days ): but i dont care because sleep is more important on my list now that lit essay so, byebye!

2008-03-03T00:26:00.002+08:00

leapyears.

"The most common word in love poems is 'miss', not 'love'"

mm i admit i am still smiling rather silly-ly to myself now. (:
and, i think i finally figured out what ive been trying to find, and i'm okay.
thank you.

term 1 week 10, let's go.
goodnight

2008-03-02T00:59:00.004+08:00

If the heart is always searching,
can you ever find a home?

mm yesterday was great, movie + dinner outing with lowell lynette junhao (: watched L even though lynette and i didnt watch Death Note 1/2. yea the details are quite clever and all (and little boy Near, lol) but i must say that i dont have a very high threshold for watching minutes and minutes of people with bleeding, oozing, rupturing pustules and blood spurting everywhere ewwww am bad with gore.

prac before that in school. j1s with their first experience having prac through a mealtime and having to go get lunch for everyone :D

okay i'm finalising the Team Raffles shirt orders and sending them in. sorry people who missed out on the notices to order hope there'll be a second round /:

2008-02-28T23:10:00.000+08:00

期待

): -------> (:
加油哦！

2008-02-27T22:50:00.004+08:00

left over.

am sleepy.
need quiet soothing place for quiet soothing time to emo.

need to cram random facts and figures from infopacks into brain for friday
/:
first shot at indian rangoli today was quite enough to make me never want to do it voluntarily again.
alright time to pack.

Open the fridge and put
My heart on a plate.
I'm just as you left me

2008-02-26T00:10:00.002+08:00

you're heaven on earth

fine.. ignore me.

dear angel on my tagboard: i finished my lit essay! NNHH! (created by vic which effectively stands for neh neh ha ha)

ok so today, i sprained my thumb. how did i do so? we were playing touch/tag/scream rugby, whatever, and i was lunging for noo's tag velcro-ed to those yucky black velcro bands we have to wear around our waists and idiotically, bimbotically, slammed my thumb into the ball. hip hip hooray. couldnt bend it, so cheryl taped it for me during prac, and until now i have one immobilised thumb which will hopefully heal by tomorrow which is actually today since it's past midnight. yucks damn loser ):

i hope tmr we're scheduled for some ball game so i can skip it and do my gp summary and lit comparison essay instead. gosh i have to stop lagging on homework [: and sleep more. how are both possibly going to occur together ! /:

2008-02-24T23:53:00.002+08:00

sang nila utama :D

just back from class learning journey to Dim Sum Dollies @ the esplanade. they are awesomeee :D shall post pictures next entry, perhaps later while i'm doing my essay. class dinner before that. sticky chewy chocolate is <3 yum yum yum

and i must say, my new dress is simply gorgeous. it's super nice la (: (: (: (:
(okay sorry please indulge me for a while i am going through this "i-like-things-to-be-quaint-and-quintessentially-pretty" phase)
though i couldnt decide which print to get so i ended up asking the salesgirl for her opinion. lol.
change is good, but i think i might prefer the scent of my old perfume. the name of the one i'm using now is pretty "/: : [:" though.

shit i dont feel like starting my lit essay now i'm having migraine again. but if i dont start now i will be dead meat tomorrow. oh dilemmaaaaa. and i have a long day tomorrow ):

beautiful poem:

So soft
the brief touch of your lips
on my cheek.

Was I almost intruding?

"Look after yourself"
should have been
"I love you!"

Then the Jumbo flew over
my head
and I shouted my love
above the roar
and thundering dust

...as if you'd hear

Through the clouds in my eyes
I watched you fly away
and wished I'd been born with wings
- Anthony West

Sometimes, the words we speak are not the words we want to say.

2008-02-24T00:43:00.002+08:00

she was looking for her prince

i spent a damned, spastically long time staring, because the resemblance was like whoa. from that angle, anyway.

anyway, just got home not long ago from dramafeste, where BW bagged best actress (sarah) and best script (by boonping). well done cast and crew. long and tiring evening at front-of-house duty, settling ticketing mistakes, changes, people who forgot to bring tickets, stupid j1s who ran away from their stations, etc. then saikang in the form of cleanup and moving display boards.

jotham was plucking at his rose doing the loves-me-loves-me-not thing. and (as always, he says) he got the 'not' result. aww. so then he was describing sth about pink roses, when they start to wilt, and the edges of the petals start to turn a shade of blood-red, and he had this beautiful piece of imagery for it - as though the rose is so sad that it begins to bleed. -------------- <3

andthis is a dorothy parker piece:

By the time you swear you're his,
Shivering and sighing,
And he vows
his passion is
Infinite, undying,
Lady, make a note of this -
One of you is lying,

and to lynette, for being posted back:
(:

2008-02-22T00:18:00.002+08:00

girl don't play the fool

yeah i dont have to take it like that at all.
not after everything.
make up your mind.

i am so annoyed at gmail which is taking forever to send the files to lowell's email.
and i really am super tired this week.
lit essay is at completion level zero. i doubt i shall be handing in tomorrow.

sometimes i love you, more than you'll ever know
other times you get on my nerves

2008-02-20T20:57:00.002+08:00

if that's ok with you

super super tired.

ok i am stuck with this problem where, in my hype of downloading themes into my phone, i then realised that... i cant delete them. either i am very noob, or it just cannot be done. which cannot be!

OKAY. right after i typed that i fiddled with my phone and figured out how to get rid of them. how clever.

bye.

2008-02-19T22:22:00.003+08:00

just me against the music

congratulations 7a. you have reached the end of ALL science practical assessments of your entire lives. you can now delete from your brain: everything from Skill A - Skill D. goodbyeeee, detestable flammable substances.

i FORGOT that i have dental tomorrow, so now dental has to > dance prac. yucks.
oh oh oh.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNETTE <3

2008-02-17T23:18:00.002+08:00

if only for a while

migraine + nausea sucks. esp. on consecutive days. there is something wrong with me.

was looking through photos and i realised, my hair is seriously damn black. i like. and it is already halfway down my back.

put up the notes from vday today on the sides of my desk. goon jeffrey, spelling wrongly lol he should stick to chinese the chinese part is much better.

managed to do half vectors assignment. the rest, i can worry about tomorrow.

head is throbbing. time to sleep.

2008-02-17T14:00:00.002+08:00

it's everything about you

i don't know why it bothers me so much. both ways.

just had a very interesting conversation with zhangkai. okay fine, despite all the griping about their noise, i do like some juniors afterall. dear lynette is one very good example.

somehow i miss the streeters very much today.

2008-02-17T00:36:00.005+08:00

i've got my heart set on anywhere but here

this line sounds very familiar like i used it to title a post before. but ohwell. see it shows that i have good taste in music - i listen to songs even before they become hits on the charts.

there's been a lot going on lately, and i'm so glad for my dearest streeters who have been there to see me through, help me make the right decisions, or simply make me laugh like they never fail to do. thank you with much love, especially, to: cheryl aileen meily vic eric jeffrey for yesterday (corporate dinner perf) and esp esp today when i was feeling weirdly superbly stupidly sick. walking arnd everywhere was really dumb, thinking back on it, mm but you people are wonderful.

i've yet to thank the many many people for all your valentines' day gifts or who wished me a good and happy day, so, thank you -

aileen angel ashwinii
charlene cheryl.t chiwei clara
eric eugene evona
gen
jeffrey jerome jodie john josh
lynette
mark meily
nigel
sam siti syaz
tiffany
yingfen
7A + 7A guys
& arghh this person with the butterscotch candy i cant rmbr who you are im sorry but thank you

it's going to be a tough week ahead ):
hang on.

你說過牽了手就算約定

太美的承諾因為太年輕

2008-02-14T00:16:00.001+08:00

i owe this from the 12th.

HAPPY EIGHTEENTH CHERYL.T
yes i know you like black & red

2008-02-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

i fake a smile so he wont see

glossing fast, reading deep, critiquing, over thinking.
appreciation?

For the demise of fair Desdemona was due to her love for her dearest Othello,
cast in his loss of faith and therefore heart,
both struck with the intensity of a heartfelt romance

2008-02-10T00:06:00.001+08:00

10/02/2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENJY

2008-02-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

Please don't get me wrong
Because I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't wanna be alone

hope everyone had a good cny break. well suddenly tomorrow's the last day. visitations are really time wasters. so what do i do about tomorrow.. hm

time flies. it would have been three.

hectic week ahead, ending with take 5 on friday. the good part, i only have to bear with 4 academic days. the bad part, that means squeezing more things into those 4 days. dont even know if that stupid corporate dinner performance is on on friday.

bought new all stars with the full intention of using them for dance, mostly. pretty shoes.

i feel worried, all of a sudden. for posting day. please please please let her stay.

& as usual, i wait and anticipate
but nothing ever comes in.
today, i wanted to say, ---------

But I can't find the words to tell you
That now i feel like I don't know you

2008-02-09T00:50:00.000+08:00

冰上的芭蕾 / 腦海中還在旋轉

the night is quiet, echoes of memories resound,

and i am at a loss for words

( ily too.. )

2008-02-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

whatcha' know 'bout me?

the word "reunion" is 50% fake and 50% redundant.

2008-02-01T00:10:00.000+08:00

breakin' dishes

omg, i'm damn tired ):
and my cough sucks to the max!

2008-01-30T23:04:00.000+08:00

toma!

LOL this is like the freaking highlight of my day:

angel's email - omg ms lee, i go to the cinema to enjoy my movie while eating popcorn. not to think of whether it's oligopolistic or not! haha you are very amusing! byebye everyone sorry for spamming.

BUT BUT BUT - imupto_ nogood to rjc08s07a, 08S06U, 08s03n, 08s06i

little miss clever sent to not only our own class but 3 whole other classes HAAHAHA.

rae says:
AHAHAHHA
rae says:
I CANT BELIEVE IT
rae says:
YOU SENT THE MAIL
rae says:
TO LIKE 4 WHOLE CLASSES
angel says:
OH
angel says:
SHIT
angel says:
SERIOUSLY?!?!??!?!
angel says:
HOW YOU KNOW
angel says:
OMG
rae says:
imupto_ nogood to rjc08s07a, 08S06U, 08s03n, 08s06i
rae says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
angel says:
OMG
angel says:
YA
rae says:
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA
angel says:
I DID
rae says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
angel says:
SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
rae says:
AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
rae says:
AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
rae says:
AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
rae says:
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
angel says:
OMG
angel says:
WHAT THE HELL?!?!??!?!?!

YAY ANGEL !

2008-01-30T00:08:00.000+08:00

like falling in love with you for the very first time

hurhurhur mum bought me cough syrup. i hate cough syrup but eh, this one tastes good [: went into some major coughing fit in the middle of dance prac like ew v tiring. yay 've finally gotten the awesome song that some group used at funka. low by flo rida feat. t-pain, it's track 01 on the STEP UP 2 OST ! yay ~~~~ (tilde...)

first j1 instructor session was good, i think. their routine quite fun eh although it's like super short. lol ken's girls' hiphop is good luh. amusing myself by watching his solo video we took today. ugh someday i wna be able to execute lyrical hiphop like ken aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ):

feeling nostalgic after reading eric's blogpost which is long, cheem, and wholly in chinese!! wah 偶像 leh eric :D your chinese still got standard pls mine is like booooooo ): hahaha lowell's pro too, with his (1-year late) ace score for hcl o's ^^

ok i think i'm gna study chem somemore now

2008-01-28T22:19:00.000+08:00

urgh cant believe i'm getting sicker plus a fever!
how to prac like that!
grrrr rawrrrr "anger, hatred" time to sleep bye bye

2008-01-28T18:15:00.000+08:00

how can i stand here with you
and not be moved by you

omg my cough is freaking terrible and my throat is dying soon.
gallons of water to gulp, here i come.

oh ey, well done to e d vance for coming in 2nd at funkamania 13.
"dope dope dope dope dope" -mr. josh lee kok 'dope' thong

2008-01-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

my heart is heavy, does it show?

productive study session @ cathay with the usual. alkenes is hell harder than arenes. got a lot of other stuff done, headed to aunt's house. had a bowling tournament on cousin's borrowed nintendo wii ok the thing is really super fun. nothing much else, came back home to hide in my room i like to hide in my room a lot nowadays.

i guess i was wrong to say that things are going to get better. in fact nothing has started and everything is just sliding. disappointed. i'd have thought that this was the one thing i could count on keeping up, but i suppose this is simply how things go when passion submits to fear.

And maybe someday we will meet,
and maybe talk and not just speak.

2008-01-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

And i'm hanging on to the words that you say

dancing is so tiring when you're sick. and i keep getting that whoooosh lightheaded feeling.
street j1 orientation. ok i found it sian for them. though i hope the j1s didnt share the same sentiment.

i've got plenty of uncompleted stuff to take care of, including my newspaper journals which i have been neglecting since the assignment started. i really really really hate vectors, no kidding. i'd rather do alkenes and then arenes tutorials consecutively than touch the vectors one. need to read my othello properly (i cheated by reading the english-translated version on the supplementary guide pages) because apparently, quotes are VERY important even at this stage and i dont know any of them, well except for the old black ram one /:

all the best to those taking SATs tomorrow.
and congrats josh&dennis for making it into talentime semis. dope la you two :D

2008-01-25T00:12:00.002+08:00

are you waking up cos' you miss someone

ugh cant believe i've fallen sick so early in the year.
grumps grumps grumps.

2008-01-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

this is where we are
this is where we've been
where we'll be?

cut my fringe today, didnt think it was that long but it actually was. lopped off a good few inches, think it's better now. dont have a mop for a fringe anymore.

amusing happenings of the day, courtesy of 08S07A:

#1: (edited for secrecy)
time 001: yingfen jumps in
time 002: yingfen gets stuck

#2
dina: (scribbling limericks on class board) OH NO i spelled ashwinii's name wrongly AGAIN

oh and this is ashwinii's limerick which actually follows the limerick rhythm lol well done lit girls dina jodie rachel!

there once was a girl named ashwinii

who liked to wear a bikinii

she walked in the park

shouting (wtf)

and drove in a pink lamborginii

fine it's something like that, i cant remember, but it was hell hilarous drawing and writing random stuff on the paper like...

#3
PHOENIX. ANGEL. POWER.

we love you, angel. so dont kill us!\

2 very very long days, over.
and then the busy week hits, hard.

races on, faster.
this is the sound of a broken heart beating
& maybe we don't have to think it's right..

2008-01-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

everybody knows you're my one weakness

absolutely hate it when you do that.
/:
i dont think i like the altruism thing very much, especially not when people are trying to apply it on me
vic's right though, i should watch out for myself first..

Term 1 Week 4, as of tomorrow. freak, how can the term pass so fast. and i tell you i am hopeless i havent done a single newspaper journal until now, so now i owe 3 weeks worth of journalling. gosh.

"i thought you were different"
"well i'm sorry i'm not who you thought i was"

hm...

2008-01-20T00:07:00.000+08:00

how can i resist you

i'd say the meeting went pretty well, though nothing much was settled. i like the idea of new opportunities opening, and the idea of securing some kind of future in dancing. ah people who know the heads/captains/whatever of dance ccas/crews in junior colleges, or know friends who might know these people, please do let me know! thanks

you know you really should stop condoning what she does, before it gets out of hand. it's really not fun at all.

"anger, hatred!" -cheryl.t

confess to me every secret moment
every stolen promise you believe
confess to me all the lies between us
all that lies between you and me

2008-01-19T15:24:00.000+08:00

watch them fall everytime

feeling like a sitting duck waiting to get hunted down and shot. seriously, chem paper yesterday was some shitZ. ok chillax man, like (mary) mah says, we're all going down together \: (albeit individually) darn i knew i should have studied during the holidays. ah well i know plenty of things but that doesnt mean i do something about every one of them.

waiting to go bathe then out for meeting with aileen and sharm about some dance competition @ dxo that sharm is organising. sigh as if i have so much extra time for these things this year. looking at the work that's piling up, o.m.g they were seriously correct when they said there's no breathing space this year. i'm already lagging on math!!! and vectors ("VECTLES") is like.. O.O

ah ok byebye

2008-01-19T01:04:00.000+08:00

JAY CHOU WORLD TOUR 2008

was freaking awesomeeeee!

i could swoon over jay like forever ♥
gosh his 'live' voice is good leh, seriously. plus he has amazing charisma enough for like all the guys in rj.

AAAAAAHHHH cant believe i was only what, 100m away from him?
people who say he's not good looking, boo you. he's charismatically cute (: and freaking talented!

okay i've got photos and videos from the concert. i shant go into a list like concert programme and everything that he did that's pretty lame. though i shall list things that were like uber fantastic parts of the concert like:

1. his dancing
2. the backup dancers (I SHALL BE A BACKUP DANCER IN THE FUTURE, LOL)
3. pianoooo (& the battle with yuhao)
4. jay on drums / jay on guzheng!
5. his BIRTHDAY SEGMENT (yep 18th better than 19th :p)

ah but he never sing favourite dandelion song ):

this dude is dope :D

♥♥♥

2008-01-10T21:09:00.000+08:00

music makes you lose control

yet another kick-ass performance by rjc street dance @ CCA Feste 2008.
(: thanks to the teammates: aileen, cheryl.t, syaz, seleena, clara, meily, victoria, athena, lowell, eric, bengoh, benjy, ron.
we really put up a great performance for the school, people were impressed, j1s & j2s alike. this bodes well for us.

& a 180 signups for this year! admin headache but we couldn't be happier with the amazing response.
busy with tryouts which will come soon enough, then interviews, then welcoming the new batch of street j1s into the club.
ah and, cca proposal.. gosh there's still a couple weeks to go plsplspls approve us.. ><

danceworks '08

2008-01-07T23:47:00.000+08:00

no use to deny this simple truth

today has been a rough day. monday's timetable is relatively bad, yet nothing compared to tuesday's. oh i so look forward to tomorrow.. /:

prac today was the penultimate wakeup call. seriously, i was just like O.O / X_X / -____- / @_@ take your pick, whichever one. c'mon street.. you can give better than this. today was like barely 50% ... one more ~~day~~ night to go, let's give it all we've got, people..

a series
of stops and starts

flash, flash, nothing, flash
flash, nothing, flash

the way we
decipher the silences,
you'd think love
was written in code

2008-01-06T22:33:00.000+08:00

it took too long

finally settled my ccao perf costume @bugis today with street people. came back late evening to dinner, 'license to wed', and a pile of work. math is the pits.

've got photo prints to settle by tuesday, more homework, other misc things.
this year is not going good..
well but i've still got happy lollipops from eric when i need them. thank you, dear friend

i take a word
and insert it into the
space between us

does that connect us? only
if you take it in
and make it your own. then

you take another word
and throw it back
to me. my turn.

2008-01-05T23:36:00.000+08:00

do you care what's on my mind

stay/leave it/leave/take it back

when it is not there, when
it has to be looked for
when it wont come
if called. when it leaves.
when we reach for it, just
before we realise its absence

2008-01-04T23:41:00.000+08:00

00,19
then, ending

2008-01-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

I say nothing i was just thinking how we don't have a song

needed: one strong shoulder & a big hug..
i am disgustingly fatigued.

2008-01-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

stickwitu

as predicted, today wasn't a good day. though my wed timetable is helluva slack one. couldnt sleep well, irritation at orientation activities for clogging up the school after having the wonderfully quiet place to prac during the entire holidays. we concluded that prac sucked. yes, "tup" would be the correct word to use. shakespeare would be proud, eh? gosh i hate reading his english. heart of darkness is worse. it's one mass spam of words over pages and pages. only gatsby is nice to read. ohwell. according to our new h2 paper lit tutor, we must read our "booouuugks"

and i'll be damned for not studying during the holidays. j1 chem test by mr chan next week i've got to cram whatever i can cram by then if not i'm toast.

thanks hl for the truffles i've only eaten one so far but it was nice.
thanks eric for trying to cheer me up today.. must give me my lollipop hor like you said ok.

2008-01-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

what i'm trying to say is:
i... just
i feel like...
it's... ohwell.

in a few hours, i'll be donning the green and white, taking the route oh-so-familiar, doing the same old, same old. hopefully, we'll be wearing smiles too.

but even mumble found gloria.. ):

2008-01-01T14:59:00.000+08:00

am off to town.
today doesnt seem to be a very fun and happy day

2008-01-01T02:25:00.000+08:00

i've been sitting here, can't get you off my mind

(this is what i tried to post last night at 3am but couldnt cos of server error)

2007 has been a great year.

coming up to rj, having a change of environment and adoring it, the new friends, greater freedom in school, a great class. my og, new opportunities in raffles players, rproject, house stuff...

but one of the greatest things i've been blessed with this year has really got to be streetdance. not just cos of the platform to really go all out for what i love so much, but also the friendships and bonds formed within the club. to aileen cheryl josh chiwei sel, benjy, lowell, athena, eric, meily, clara, bengoh, syaz, vic, jeffrey, charlene (the regulars) seriously i love love love you people i'm so glad i've got you (:

& today's performances were awesome, both of them even though both performing areas were so different. to the 9 of us, the countdown team: good job, everyone. thank you, for all the effort, the time, travelling, perspiration, money, energy, whatever. and for the opportunities opened up to us today from the GRCs, MPs, yada yada, o.m.g drop dead amazing. things are really looking up!

(rmbr to ask me for photos and videos)

hello, 2008
here's hoping for a year of wonderful experiences ahead. though it definitely isnt going to be smooth-sailing, i'm sure we'll find ways to cope together.

"new year should be spent with someone special"
("oh but to me, i did...")

2007-12-30T01:25:00.000+08:00

will always be my boo

i cant sleep la ):
sigh.