they can never have yesterday

already i'm missing... /: it feels like the longest 3 days ever. i really have no idea (wait ok actually i do but it's so hard to put it into actual words) why i'm feeling this way. mm but i have survived 1. and it's just a little more to go. or so i tell myself.

went grocery shopping at the supermarket yesterday. decided to get a trolley, and i was just pushing it round and round up and down the aisles for so long not knowing what to buy or why i was there. it was a very lonely-widow feeling. seriously. same thing, returned home this morning to a series of frustrating pangs of melancholy. gosh im becoming some vulnerable schizz.

i'm sad.
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i feel like moving to my lj for good.